I'm So Tired being a STUPID

I'm a bit shocked today.. Somethin unexpected happen which I considers as MIRACLE for tht girl but not for ME!! OMG..why I write this... I've already told myself not to remember him anymore.. But why... i just can't...And when I keep care about him something that makes me so hurt happen...Being so STUPID because of HIM makes me so tired... And i'm supposed to blame..I'm the one who create this rumors for myself....Anyone...Can you lend me one of your hand or lend me your shoulders? Coz I need one of that.. :(